Relationship : Rushing into relationships.

Heyy, as for the last relationship-related post this weeek,

I decided to write about rushing into relationships way too soon before you are actually ready to be one.

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The best way to tell you how NOT to is by sharing my story on what happened.

Basically, there was a time in my life where I was curious about what it's like to be in relationship, I was feeling the pressure of being in one towards the end stage of my teenage years when I realized, I still haven't been in ANY relationships & seeing all my friends in one - made it a lot worse.

I constantly told myself then - it's okay, I'll wait and one day he'll pop up naturally into my life and everything would be as it is meant to be ...

but as time went on, and still realizing that I'm still single, it started to hit me : What if I'm not likable, what if I'm going to die alone, what if no one will ever like me, what if I become that person that nobody wants to be with because I've never been with anyone & lastly : what is wrong with me? 

And once that spiral started, it was hard to stop. 

Soon enough, I find myself 'being in a relationship' with someone I like but not really like-like. It was more of the curiosity than actually being in one that lead me into being in a relationship with that person. My instincts from the beginning was giving me a sour feeling like something wasn't right but I chose to ignore it and blame it on 'who knows, things can change for the better right?'

So few months down the line, I noticed things started to change . I started to become a character who 'should be' to maintain in that relationship, I started to mold myself into that 'perfect partner' role and while doing so, I realized I started to hide more of who I am away from him - so much that I became someone else. After another few months of trying to cope with it, it just kept going downhill to the point that I couldn't take it anymore.

I was getting annoyed, left-out, not having the chance to be heard, disrespected, treated as if I had no say in the relationship whatsoever and lastly, I couldn't be myself when I'm with him & that was the last stroke that made me broke out. 

I decided then, I can't be with someone who I cant be myself with. I can't live in a life that I feel trapped in and call it a 'relationship' and I have too much faith & passion for finding true love that being in that relationship was NOT worth it at all - so with all those reasons, I decided to end it. I decided to break free & from that moment I broke free, it's like I found myself again and I never felt happier. 

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So that's my story. 

Ever since then, I told myself 'I'm never getting in relationship just because I want to' because whenever you force happiness onto yourself - you can't lie to how you truly feel inside (you can lie to how you look but you can never lie to your instinct & to your happiness within). 

So here's my advice:

Ever since I learnt those lessons,

I learnt rushing into a relationship or BEING in a relationship isn't as important as finding your own happiness & being with what truly makes you happy.

It may take days,months, years till I find someone again,

but you know what...

I have faith that whenever that happens, it will HAPPEN,

so I won't sit and wish my days away but instead, I'll go out there and do the things I love & if one day, he pops up in my life - I believe he will fit in like a puzzle piece to complete the whole picture. 

Till then,

I've got other things to focus & be happy about. :) 

Hope you found this post helpful & inspiring .

Take care , lots of love & good luck,

G.